I need some serious pain killers!!!

I am currently going through the hardest transition I hope I ever have to take. All of my friends that I have know my whole life are leaving and I am left here in the wake of it all. Collin was the first to go, and I don't think it had really hit me yet what was really happening. Last Tuesday I woke up around 5:30am to say goodbye to Luke one last time before he went halfway across the country for seminary. I was starting to realize it when I found out that he might not even come back for Christmas. I knew I was going to see the rest of my buddies on Thanksgiving, if not that then winter break. Not seeing the man who has been possibly the single most important influence in my high skool career for more than a few months is something that is very hard to cope with. After that knocked me to the ground, my co-twin tower said goodbye to me on Wednesday. I was then kicked in the gut after being knocked down on Tuesday. Then to put salt in the wounds I realized that Collin had left already and Jay was going to leave the next week. After tears came out of my face I had to say goodbye to Andrew and Kaylee, who I have known since preskool. My happiness and joy is leaving me one person at a time. I have never cried this much. I tear up even as I write this.

My dream world consists of staying with all of my friends and having them no farther than a few minutes away so that we could be together on a whim. I wouldn't care if we stayed in Eugene or if we moved to Russia. As long as I had my friends with me, I would always be fine. Alas, that is just a fantasy. Life must go on and ties must be loosened. I'm already getting excited for Thanksgiving and Winter Break when I get to see my hombres once more. I'm already starting to make plans in my head for what we are going to do. And thanks to Al Gore, we have the world wide web, and keeping in touch with the people that mean so much to me isn't a hard task at all. Boo ya!!!